GOD ARE YOU THERE, OR AM I ALONE IN THIS DARKNESS? – Episode 3
What do you do when you’re surrounded by darkness and can’t seem to see the light? What do you do when the silence envelopes you, leaving no room to breathe? What do you do when in your heart you know God is always with you, but your reality proves otherwise? What do you do when your shout echoes in the darkness and brings back silence? What do you do when God seems far away, his voice a distant whisper, and all you have to do is wait?
The waiting season is a topic that gets romanticized a lot. People tend to say things like ‘Oh, enjoy your waiting period, it’s God’s way of preparing you, so bask in it,’ ‘Just keep praying even when there are no answers.’ In all honesty, these are all true; your waiting season can pretty much be God letting you go through a bunch of tests in preparation for what is to come. However, I want to focus on the part that does not get as much publicity, the not-so-pretty part of waiting. There is no shame in accepting the fact that waiting can be hard. I am in a waiting season right now, and most of the time all I can do is sit in the silence while disassociating myself from everything because, maybe, just maybe, then the pain won’t be as much. On some days, all you can do is ask God for just a peek, just a glimpse into what he has in store for you, just so you can draw some strength from it. In our minds, we believe that the delayed gratification will make more sense and be worth it if we at least have an idea of what we are looking forward to. I do this all the time.
On some days, all you can do is whisper for strength. Strength to hold on long enough, strength to keep going even though the path is blocked. And when strength fails, all you want is Peace. That peace promised to us in Philippians 4:5-7 “do not worry about anything, but in all your prayers ask God for what you need, always asking him with a thankful heart. And God’s peace, which is far beyond human understanding, will keep your heart and mind safe in union with Christ Jesus.”
I have come to realise that this “peace” is such a complicated concept. It is a feeling of floating, wherein you are well aware of the storm around you, but your eyes remain fixated on Jesus. It is a place of total surrender and belief that even if my ship breaks, I know it is for a bigger purpose, and even if the waters overthrow me, I know I will get to the other side. This peace from God is an awareness that although I might be alone in this boat, I am surrounded by pieces that God has provided to meet my every need during this season. Thus, even in the midst of this storm, there is sufficiency. On some days, the piece can be the peace of God, on some days the piece can be the silence, on some days the piece can be worship, on some days the piece can be tears, and just like Paul in Acts 27:44, on some days the piece can be an actual piece. No matter how pretty or not so pretty your piece is, hold on to it, savor it, embrace it until you become one with it because one thing is sure, no matter how loud the waves crash or how hard your boat is thrust, God is there with you even when you do not see him. So, the next time you feel alone in the darkness, stretch out your hands and look for the piece God has placed there for you and no matter how overwhelming or disappointing it seems at first, hold on to it, cause that piece will get you safely ashore.
Let’s Say This Prayer Together:
Dear God,
Can you hear me? It’s me again, your child.
I am currently in a season where the darkness is overwhelming, and the silence is loud. I can feel the weight of my fears creeping in and I’m trying to keep my eyes fixed on you.
Daddy, you promised to give me peace even in the midst of the storm; so, fill me with this peace even as I hold on to all the pieces of hope you have graciously surrounded me with.
Abba, help me to keep my eyes focused on you always, completely believing that no matter how loudly the waves rage, you are more than able to carry me safely ashore.
So, when I feel all alone, guide me to the piece that brings your peace, and let it be enough for today. Amen.
Hi guys, thanks for reading. Faith doesn’t always silence the questions, sometimes, it just teaches us where to bring them. This series is not about having all the answers; it’s about creating room to ask the hard ones. So if you’re doubting, hurting, or just tired of pretending, know this: God is not offended by your questions. He’s already in them, waiting to meet you with love, truth, and grace. So, keep showing up, keep asking, and keep believing, even with trembling hands. Because even in the questions… He is still God.
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